The grind is here again. I can feel it begin to weigh on me a bit.
At the beginning of the fall, I was doing OK. I could generally make it to the 11 o'clock news, having done all of the chores and watched the required amount of DVR material. But I am started to loose a little traction. I got more sleep than i have in months over this weekend, but just found myself (or more accurately, got caught by my wife) snoozing a bit during the kids "nigh-night show". Am I old? Or is this the new "normal"?
The fall program is certainly in full swing, so I do have a bit of a reason - if not an excuse - to be a little tired. But I don't remember it hitting as early in the year.
I don't feel old very often, although there are those times that I get off the couch to go to bed at 11PM and all of the bones crack and the muscles don't snap back the way they used to.
And it's not that I don't get plenty of rest. I usually get a really good 8 hours worth, so I can blame it on lack of sleep.
So what is it?
I really do think it is the new normal. Never before have we been asked to accomplish so much. We work our jobs, we do the house work. We try to spend the right amount of time with the kids, and dote on our spouses as much as possible. But the question I find myself asking to myself - and a lot of the times out loud - is "how have I failed YOU today?"
Most of the time I can answer that question for myself. I give 100% every day and try to handle as much as life throws at me. But sometimes, no matter how hard I try, there are always items left on the to-do list.
That's when I have to remind myself of a little concept called balance. Sure, work is important. But, so is family time, and a little ME time. There's time to do the yard work, and time to do the house work. There is time to completely veg out in front of the TV, and root for the Dodgers and Angels.
So if i failed you some time in the past week or so, let me say that I am sorry. But bear with me, I am doing the best I can. I am trying to work this thing called "balance"
And at the end of the day, tired is the new normal. There aren't enough hours in the day. There's not enough of us to go around.
My advice? Do what God has set before you to do, and let Him worry about the rest. Oh, and don't forget to rest - He set aside a day to do it. So should we.
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Hey Olin,
Yes, tired is the name of the game. We are all in the humanity "boat". And fathers and mothers especially feel this way I think. That they never have enough time, that there's always more to do, that they just are spread too thin, that they're not doing a good enough job. I've felt that way countless times.
But what do we do? When "change is inevitable, but struggle is optional?" We go to the One Who knows our struggles and our weaknesses. Who knows our very frame, because He put it together in just that way. And we let Him teach us at yet another level how to depend on Him more. We "let go" as Dave has told me countless times (and had to do so himself so many times,) and live in that peace and freedom
THAT is what pleases Him and releases the power to grow and change and become more like that man or woman He created us to be.
You are doing a great job! I love singing in the choir. It is one of the greatest blessings I have. And one of the reasons why is because of you and your enthusiasm and your pure worship. It takes us and the congregation right into the throne room.
We learn so much through failure (to meet our own expectations) and to others. We learn we are human and God can grow us a little more as we learn to depend on Him a little more.
I figure if I can go to bed at night after running all day long just trying to keep up some days, & trying to make sense of it all, and still have a smile on my face about something, and tell Him "thank You" for the day I'm doing OK. And am just where He wants me to be.
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