I am not depressed. Not sad. In fact, I am very happy with things in my life right now. 2 amazing, yet hyper kids. A wife who grows more beautiful with every passing day, and a job that is very fulfilling.
I guess the last post was just written while I was very sleepy and people may have thought that I was a little discontent, or unhappy with how things are going right now. But I really enjoyed writing it and thought is was written well enough to share with my friends on Facebook.
I am pretty hard on myself, because I often think i should be able to be the answer to most questions. The solution to most problems, and available to suit all of your needs. That is nonsense, and I know it. You know it. But that doesn't keep me from trying.
If you know me, you know I like to have fun, try to have a lot of energy and encourage you as much as I can. So if I came across needy or a little emo, sorry, that was not the intention.
That being said, I am quite proud of updating the old blog 2 days in a row. I do, however feel a little quilty sitting here typing while Jess is upstairs reading the boys to sleep. Maybe I will go fold some laundry....
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Tired. The New Normal
The grind is here again. I can feel it begin to weigh on me a bit.
At the beginning of the fall, I was doing OK. I could generally make it to the 11 o'clock news, having done all of the chores and watched the required amount of DVR material. But I am started to loose a little traction. I got more sleep than i have in months over this weekend, but just found myself (or more accurately, got caught by my wife) snoozing a bit during the kids "nigh-night show". Am I old? Or is this the new "normal"?
The fall program is certainly in full swing, so I do have a bit of a reason - if not an excuse - to be a little tired. But I don't remember it hitting as early in the year.
I don't feel old very often, although there are those times that I get off the couch to go to bed at 11PM and all of the bones crack and the muscles don't snap back the way they used to.
And it's not that I don't get plenty of rest. I usually get a really good 8 hours worth, so I can blame it on lack of sleep.
So what is it?
I really do think it is the new normal. Never before have we been asked to accomplish so much. We work our jobs, we do the house work. We try to spend the right amount of time with the kids, and dote on our spouses as much as possible. But the question I find myself asking to myself - and a lot of the times out loud - is "how have I failed YOU today?"
Most of the time I can answer that question for myself. I give 100% every day and try to handle as much as life throws at me. But sometimes, no matter how hard I try, there are always items left on the to-do list.
That's when I have to remind myself of a little concept called balance. Sure, work is important. But, so is family time, and a little ME time. There's time to do the yard work, and time to do the house work. There is time to completely veg out in front of the TV, and root for the Dodgers and Angels.
So if i failed you some time in the past week or so, let me say that I am sorry. But bear with me, I am doing the best I can. I am trying to work this thing called "balance"
And at the end of the day, tired is the new normal. There aren't enough hours in the day. There's not enough of us to go around.
My advice? Do what God has set before you to do, and let Him worry about the rest. Oh, and don't forget to rest - He set aside a day to do it. So should we.
At the beginning of the fall, I was doing OK. I could generally make it to the 11 o'clock news, having done all of the chores and watched the required amount of DVR material. But I am started to loose a little traction. I got more sleep than i have in months over this weekend, but just found myself (or more accurately, got caught by my wife) snoozing a bit during the kids "nigh-night show". Am I old? Or is this the new "normal"?
The fall program is certainly in full swing, so I do have a bit of a reason - if not an excuse - to be a little tired. But I don't remember it hitting as early in the year.
I don't feel old very often, although there are those times that I get off the couch to go to bed at 11PM and all of the bones crack and the muscles don't snap back the way they used to.
And it's not that I don't get plenty of rest. I usually get a really good 8 hours worth, so I can blame it on lack of sleep.
So what is it?
I really do think it is the new normal. Never before have we been asked to accomplish so much. We work our jobs, we do the house work. We try to spend the right amount of time with the kids, and dote on our spouses as much as possible. But the question I find myself asking to myself - and a lot of the times out loud - is "how have I failed YOU today?"
Most of the time I can answer that question for myself. I give 100% every day and try to handle as much as life throws at me. But sometimes, no matter how hard I try, there are always items left on the to-do list.
That's when I have to remind myself of a little concept called balance. Sure, work is important. But, so is family time, and a little ME time. There's time to do the yard work, and time to do the house work. There is time to completely veg out in front of the TV, and root for the Dodgers and Angels.
So if i failed you some time in the past week or so, let me say that I am sorry. But bear with me, I am doing the best I can. I am trying to work this thing called "balance"
And at the end of the day, tired is the new normal. There aren't enough hours in the day. There's not enough of us to go around.
My advice? Do what God has set before you to do, and let Him worry about the rest. Oh, and don't forget to rest - He set aside a day to do it. So should we.
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